And I began to understand why I felt depressed when I did my mind-singing the night before. Not sure if my eyes were playing tricks on me, other than the standing white figure which many people saw, I also noticed a darker figure who was crawling on the floor!Īlthough it was a little creepy, I actually felt more of happy and excited that such mystical phenomena could actually come true on such a big concert event in front of the eyes of a large audience like that. People were saying they could see a white figure standing among the other 4 members on stage during a performance! The fans believed it was the spirit of Jonghyun who was coming back to perform with his brothers as 5. That night when we got back to our JB home, I saw a strange photo from the concert that was circulating online.
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But at the same time, I was aware that the SHINee concert was also happening around the same time when I was watching the movie. But then, there wasn’t really anything I could do whenever this situation happened. It felt like an aggressive act of theft to me. Based on my past experiences with schizophrenia, I had come to associate this unpleasant sensation as a sign that a spirit was “stealing” something from my head.
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While in the middle of the movie and I was engrossed watching, I felt the right side of my head freeze suddenly as if something was sucking blood out of my brain. Next day, 17 February, I went to a theatre in JB with my family to catch a new year movie.
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SHINEE WORLD THE BEST 2018 – FROM NOW ON – KYOCERA DAY 1 That night, as part of my usual routine before I went to bed, I tweeted my own setlist that I had prepared for mind-singing for the concert on the next day. But I didn’t know why, the more I sang, the more depressed I felt, as if there was something heavy weighing down on my back. On the night of 16 February, I sang a couple of SHINee songs in preparation for their concert the next day. I had to spend the Chinese New Year weekend with my family in Johor Bahru. It was SHINee’s first concert as a 4-member group since Jonghyun’s passing. The following year, during Chinese New Year this year, SHINee was having “ SHINee WORLD THE BEST 2018~FROM NOW ON~ “ concert in Osaka on 17-18 February. This was how Jonghyun looked like as Santa Claus in my mind?! ??? 아니요, this one looks more like it ? I knew for sure he must have been busy going around the world, cheering up his fans and showering them with “secret santa gifts” on this Christmas Day! Haha the thought of it comforted me a little. Then came a cute vision of Jonghyun dressed like Santa Claus carrying a sack on his back, flashing across my mind. I was in the shower at our airbnb apartment in Seoul one night, feeling depressed over my relationship with Taenggu. While I had to deal with several emotional heartbreaks on my own during the trip after watching Taenggu’s The Magic Of Christmas Time concert in Seoul, once in a while I would see visions of Jonghyun appearing in my mind. Shortly after Jonghyun passed away on 18th December last year, I went on a holiday trip to South Korea with some friends which was already planned a long time back. Yes, I definitely believed the dream the girl had while in coma was real! Below was a touching story of how Jonghyun could have successfully saved the life of a fangirl who had a close shave with death after committing suicide. The first thing I believed his spirit did in the other world after he passed away was to save the lives of many Shawols who got depressed and also resorted to committing suicide to follow the footsteps of their beloved idol.
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The following are the little stories of what Jonghyun could have been up to in the past one year of his afterlife, some were my own while others were what I had found online written or posted by other Shawols. One would have wondered how has he been doing all these while in Heaven or another spiritual world that is often unknown to us? I often wondered about that too. It’s exactly one year since Jonghyun’s departure.